Just when you thought everything is just fine and normal...you suddenly realize life is too short. My worst fear happened last week. I never thought that it would end up like this. I wished I was there to make you feel good till the very end but God has other plans for you... greater plans I'm sure.
I couldn't even manage to hold my tears whenever my brain would mention your name... much so look at your picture. Its because I have to accept the fact that you're gone. I have been a terrible friend and I'm sorry. So many wishes and could haves but its too late. I'm still crying and I wonder when it'll stop. Perhaps never. And I can imagine you yelling at me to stop and be strong... but how can I? Sundays won't be the same without our coffee catch-ups, now I'll have to think ten times before buying a shirt just to make sure if I need it... I will surely miss our random expensive lunch and dinner :D I guess I'll have to learn to watch a movie alone.
More than that, I know that you're looking at us and making sure we're on the right track. I know God has your back now...I know that you're happier.
Thank you for the friendship. Thank you for being there for me when I needed someone to confess something bad. Thank you for making sure I'm okay and worrying about my love life.
Thank you for the love and sharing your life with me. I will forever miss you.
I love you Doy. Soooo much. RIP.